For me every year at this time it’s difficult , My husband and I lost both of our children one on 12/26/2006 and the other 01/23/2012; but this year has been extremely difficult. My grandmother passed away on 12/14/2013 @ 4:00 a.m.
We were able to spend the last hours of her life by her side. When it was time for her to transition we were talking to her as she took her very last breath. I was rubbing her hair telling her how proud of her I was. I’ve never done anything like that before. I’m forever changed by that defining moment. She passed quietly in her sleep.
Before she passed on Saturday she accepted Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior on that Monday the week before. God was faithful to His promise:
And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.
Who shall tell thee words, whereby thou and all thy house shall be saved.
The enemy thought that he was going to use her death to bring depression on me, but God said not so!!! He spoiled the plot, plan and scheme of the enemy. He didn’t allow me to stumble or fall. His protection was shielding me.
Holy Spirit led me to a scripture that I’ve read so many times but He breathed fresh revelation on it for me.
Surely he hath borne our griefs,and carried our sorrows:
He showed me that Jesus took my grief and sorrow on His body on the cross, so I don’t have to grieve and I am not to take sorrow. The enemy will use a death to bring in grief and sorrow. He’ll try to come in anyway he can. He’ll wait until he thinks we’re weak. The ultimate opportunist.
And the world will tell you to grieve. The dictionary even uses grieve and mourn interchangeably.
But the bible says, Matthew 5:4-Blessed are they that mourn:for they shall be comforted.
Just reading that the spirit of heaviness lifted off of me.
The entrance of thy words giveth light;it giveth understanding unto the simple.
I’m so amazed at the depth of God’s love and compassion for us. He cares for you and I way more than we have the capacity to understand. He’s constantly revealing Himself to me.
He wants to do the same for you. He is not just some strange God sitting in heaven leaving us alone to suffer things on our own. He made sure I was ok.
I’ve experienced a level of His grace like I’ve never known. Months ago for a period of about 30 days, He had me waking up praying in tongues from 3 a.m. to 6 a.m. I didn’t understand why until I was standing beside my grandmother rubbing her hair and talking to her as she entered our Lord’s presence. He prepared me. He strengthened me so that I could be there for my grandmother and my mother.
Today my family celebrated Christmas with joy, peace and laughter!!!!
Whatever you may be going through please know, that God is faithful!!!!
The Lord will perfect that which concerneth me:thy mercy, O Lord, endureth for ever:
If it concerns you, God is perfecting it!!!!
Blessings & Peace