Their are days when I sit alone with tears streaming down my face wondering why it seems like I can’t do what so many others do, why I can’t go here or go their, why Holy Spirit checks me on the T.V. shows I watch; the music I listen to. The things I bring into my home. Why my phone conversations are few and far between.

Luke 8:18 (KJV)
Take heed therefore how ye hear: for whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken even that which he seemeth to have.

Mark 4:24 (KJV(
And he said unto them, Take heed what ye hear: with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you: and unto you that hear shall more be given.

Until I hear, you volunteered for this. You said, Lord use me. You said, Lord I’m available to you.
So I separated you and set you apart. My anointing isn’t cheap. There is a process and many aren’t willing to be processed. Crushing takes place in process. Process hurts. Process is lonely. Process is a stripping away of everything that can’t go with you into your next season of destiny.

A funny thing happens in process; people tend to talk about you. Say all manner of evil against you because you are not coming around Or when you do; you are not the same. Because you’re not all up in their face or always sitting with your feet under their table.
Family often can be the worst to dog you out.
Chile’ who does she think she is? Acting all holier than thou.
It don’t take all that to be saved. More heavenly minded than earthly good.

God will show you the very heart of the ones who say with their lying lips they love you. But really can’t stand you. And part of the process is praying for your enemies. I mean really praying for your enemies. Living a life unoffended. Keeping your soul healed.

For me personally, the more God deals with me; the quieter I get. Honey, I have to go somewhere and have several seats. I have to be still. I’m in a holy place. His presence is all consuming.

I’ve found promises of inheritance that belong to me in His word that involve not only me but the generations that will come from me. I’m going after it. Taking territory in the Kingdom, tearing down demonic strongholds, and recovering all that was left by the generations before me. I have seed in the ground that hasn’t been harvested. Until it manifests I’m protecting my seed. I could give two flying flips who doesn’t like it.

2 Corinthians 12:9
King James Version (KJV)
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Walking faith out until what you are believing God for manifests will show you who is praying for/with you and who is not.