Tonight as I prepared myself to sit up under the hair dryer I went to my book shelf looking for a book to read that would help me endure what I knew would be a lengthy amount of time.
I stood for a moment staring at my books until I felt one jump out at me.
I sat down, adjusted the hood and settled in as I began to read; instantly I felt like I was standing in the presence of God Himself. Reading each word it was as if the voice of thunder was ringing in my ears.
I began to inhale each line. Calling for my husband to bring me a pin and a highlighter. Have you ever been reading and found yourself high lighting whole pages? Under lining whole chapters?
Suddenly it dawned on me, I’ve had this book for over 2 1/2 years. How could I have had this book just sitting for 2 1/2 years without reading it?
I thought how stupid is that.
It seems like I hadn’t even completed the thought when -Whoooooosh……
Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, “I had you buy that book 2 1/2 years ago because I knew you would need it 04/26/2014 @ 9:30pm on Saturday night.”
I was still in my silence because of the tone in which He sounded. I had never heard Him speak to me that way. In a gentle harsh correctness😥.
For the Lord corrects and disciplines everyone whom He loves, and He punishes, even scourges, every son whom He accepts and welcomes to His heart and cherishes. (Hebrews 12:6 AMP)
My mind drifted off to all the times I referred to myself as being stupid for not getting something sooner. Or how stupid I had been in my actions. Or how stupid I had been for this or that.
Holy Spirit showed brought to my memory;
So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.
And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. And the evening and the morning were the sixth day.
He said, ” You were not made stupid because of who made you. Never again call yourself stupid. It’s impossible for you to be stupid. You have not always made wise decisions but you were never at any time stupid. Your actions were not a surprise. From the beginning it was known that you would wake up and come to yourself at the exact time and moment that you did. So there was a grace waiting on you to over come. ”
I quickly repented for speaking evil of myself😥. I quickly repented of speaking evil filled words.
I nullified and voided every evil, idle word I had spoken over myself. And began to speak what God has said about me.
He showed me that I had a poor image of myself. And because of that; I didn’t believe in myself which meant I was unable to believe in Him properly. He said, “I am in you, but I can only do through you what you believe”.
He was right, I lacked confidence. I had been stifled at every turn. I would start and stop. Having to start over again and again. Never making any kind of real progress. I found myself all to often doubting my gift and calling, my ability in Christ. Doubting my ability to hear from God and to be led by Holy Spirit.
Have you ever found any of these things affecting and infecting you?
Have you ever found yourself speaking evil of yourself? Have you ever found yourself speaking against what or who God says you are?
If you are not calling yourself what God calls you; you are speaking evil words.
Have you ever called yourself fat? If so; please know that you are not fat, you have fat.
Today let us correct our speech to line up with the word of grace. Today let us stop letting the enemy use our words against us. Today let us repent and know that when ever you wake up and get it, there is a grace waiting on you to over come.
It may be a surprise to us but it is never a surprise to God. He’s already out in your future preparing the way. Paving your way of success.
2 Corinthians 2:14
Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.