No Longer Broken


This morning seems so different, as I began to awaken from sleep my ears were what opened before my eyes. Off in the distance I could hear the sound of the mower. I ran my hand along his side of the bed, empty. Then I remember he said that he was going to get up early and cut the grass. My eyes slowly open to see the sun peaking through the cracks in our curtains. Excitedly I get out of bed going through the house opening up the curtains/blinds inviting the sunshine in.


Today is different, I can’t put my finger on exactly what it is, but, my level of expectancy is on high alert. There is an electric charge in the atmosphere. Joy is arising in me. Happiness is my portion. Sitting here just enjoying the stillness, tears just begin to well up in my eyes. I sigh a deep breath and release them. Not saying a word, this morning my tears are my prayers. 
I’ve said it before but it deserves to be repeated; after everything that we have been through, I never thought that I would smile again. I thought that the hurt would last forever. Moments turned into days, days into weeks and weeks into months. Now years have passed and today as I sit here ,I woke up and I am completely whole. No longer broken or defining myself by the events that have happened in the past. Not to downplay or diminish what has happened. But for us God has made all things new. 
Revelation 21:5 (ESV)
And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” 
Some say that time heals old wounds, well I give that glory to God. God has healed all my wounds. My trust is in the Lord who has made heaven and earth. 
I don’t know what you may be going through today but I know the one who heals, delivers and sets free. And He is faithful to do exactly what you will allow Him to do in your life. 
I wrote my first book over a year ago and have not been released to publish it, now, today I have been given the go ahead. It’s time to give birth. It’s time to push. 
Until next time shalom my friends.

Stewardship


Happy Saturday! I pray that all is well with you and your families. I pray that the God of peace is resting on your house.

Things with me are going well. Each day God is adding to Kevin and I, we are increasing, flourishing and thriving. I can now say, This is the LORD’S doing; it is marvellous in our eyes. 

Today I want to write and share with you on the topic of stewardship. Our church has been in a two month series entitled, “Reconciling Financial Prosperity With The Grace Of God”

We have sat and heard some radical life transforming teaching, both of us have grown tremendously from it. We have learned how much God truly loves us and wants us to prosper in every area of our lives. God is not mad with us. He is not even in an bad mood where we are concerned. To both Kevin & I that is the point our whole lives changed. Our ears had heard The Good News. We have been hearing The Gospel preached. We have been given the freedom to take our eyes off of what we do and to switch our focus to what Jesus has already done for us. We have begun to just FREELY receive everything that has been made available to us through the finished work of Jesus. We have learned that God doesn’t need our help, He needs our trust. We are now in the posture and position of trust. 
Because of these teachings we have become stewardship minded. 
Steward-manager over the affairs of another
Personally I have learned from this series, that I am the manager over the blog that God has entrusted me with. I am responsible for the content that is shared here, from these pages you will always find truth that promotes growth and change. I had become so overwhelmed with the thought that I wasn’t blogging on a consistent basis. I had been reading all the blog how to’s and what not to do’s. But Holy Spirit so kindly interrupted me and sweetly reminded me that this blog and it’s content comes from Him. Not my great writing ability. And He is right. I refuse to publish anything that He hasn’t given me to write to you. At the point I begin to do that it is no longer about Him. It becomes all about me. All of the blogging tips out there are great resources but as for me , I , can’t mix the opinions of others with the clear direction I have received from God. I cannot mix a great idea with a God idea. 
My priority is still to write to you and bring you awesome content but the consistency of that content will be what He gives me and I believe He places on my heart to share. I  have realized that I can not place my feet in the shoe prints of others and walk in there way.



It’s one thing to say, Lord I submit my way to you and quite another to actually release the reigns and allow Him to direct the way that we go. 
God is the source, for all of our needs. He is our supply house. We look to Him to take care of us. As I grow on this journey I invite you to come along and grow with me. 
Until next time,
Shalom my friends

It’s so good to be back!


It has been a while since I have sat down and wrote to you all. Not because you haven’t been on my mind because you have. My life has taken an awesome turn due to God’s blessing me with my new job. He has opened up a wonderful door of opportunity for me. And quite honestly I haven’t known how to manage both my new work schedule, being a wife and keeping up with the demands of blogging. My how I’ve  gone through a complete transition trying to get on a consistent schedule. As you know my writing to you comes out of my study time and I haven’t been able to just sit ,study and meditate the Word. 

With that being said I know that He will grace me with better time management as I continue to stay before Him and listen for the plan. 
The last post that I wrote I was about to start a 31 day corporate fast with my church. That fast was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. He gave answers to things that have been before our family. My job came through during that fast. New connections were made and I feel refreshed, renewed and energized. I feel more steady in my walk with the Lord. My feet feel anchored in Him. 
Our pastor has been teaching for a good two months on “trusting” God. I have to almost laugh because my husband and I have been faced with every opportunity where we had to make a quality decision to trust God. I mean crazy things have happened. Unexplainable things. And right in the middle of it all we have both heard our pastor’s words from past sermons. In those moments we both decided to speak out loud, “Lord we decide to trust you and know that You love us”. And every instance He worked it out for our good. Proving  Romans 8:28 
over and over again. 
Faith is both a personal encounter and daily lifestyle!




Until next time…….


Shalom my friends

Fasting


I will be taking a break from the blogging world and other social media sites for a few weeks in January. I am going to take the time to fast and spend more time in the word. So many decisions have to be made this year and I want to make sure I am going in the right direction. I have been faced with the same issue in a certain area for years now and I am finally ready to confront it and get rid of it. In order to do that I need the wisdom of God. He knows exactly how I need to attack this issue so I am going in for VERY specific warfare tactics.

When I read the bible they went before The Lord and used prayer and fasting to get instructions before the battle,after the battle, for answers to prayers, etc.

Moses Fasted Before Receiving the Commandments – Deuteronomy 9:9-18

David Mourning His Child’s Illness – 2 Samuel 12:1-23

Elijah Fasted While Escaping Jezebel – 1 Kings 19:4-8

Ezra Fasted While Mourning Over Sin – Ezra 10:6-17

Esther Fasted for the Safety of the Jews – Esther 4:15-17

Darius Fasted For the Safety of Daniel – Daniel 6:18-23

Daniel Fasted for an Answer to Prayer – Daniel 10:1-3

Jesus Fasted Before Temptation by Satan – Matthew 4:1-2

Paul Fasted After His Conversion – Acts 9:1-9

Church Elders in Antioch Fasted Before Sending out Missionaries – Acts 13:1-3

These are just a few examples of fasting found in scripture.

This year I fully intend to get VICTORY in every area of my life. I want something that I’ve never had so I must do something I’ve never done.

I enlist your prayers.

Pray For Me!

Shalom My Friends

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Happy New Year!!!!!!


Welcome to 2015!!! The first day of a brand new year. One that we have never seen before. Today is a fresh start. Whatever we have purposed to do let us do it with Christ as the center of it all.

Hubby and I brought the New Year in honoring God as we do every year. Our pastor gave us a great word that has showed us where to shift our focus. So for 2015 we now know where our focus is.

Colossians 1:27 is our scripture for the year.

For me, today I started Day 1 of an intense bible reading plan that will have me reading through the entire O.T. once and the N.T. three times throughout the year. I’ve never read the whole bible all the way through but I’ve always wanted to. What a great day to start as my focus is on Christ in me.

What are some goals that you have for the new year? What would you like to accomplish this year? Whatever that may be for you I pray great success.

Psalm 20:4

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Random Thoughts


As I sit here thinking over how blessed my family has been in 2014. I can’t help but praise Him for His faithfulness. I’m so grateful!! Everyday of this year He showed up for us. Not one day did He leave us alone. Keeping His promise to never leave or forsake us. Believe me, we have had some rough days this year and in each of those moments we never had to face any challenge alone.

I’m looking ahead into 2015 for the greater. I’ve begun to get my calendars and planners together as well as seeking God for the new year. Asking Him what He would have us to believe Him for? Whatever, He has planned for us we are on board with helping Him accomplishing through us.

What about you? Have you begun to seek the vision for your household, finances, career, ministry etc?
I’m learning to be more specific. That’s something I have not done in the past. I have been vague which produced vague results. In some ways I set myself up for failure without even realizing it. A lot of course corrections and adjustments had to be made. Thank God for His Grace.

I want to take the time to thank each and everyone of you who have taken the journey with me. I’m honored that you share apart of your day with me. Together we have made it through. I know I have not blogged a lot this year. ( That will change in 2015) I made a decision not to give you quantity but quality. In the days that I was quite I was listening and seeking the will of God on so many things. I needed to just be still. Have you ever been there? Have you ever found yourself in that place? Of just needed to be alone with God. Shutting out the world and just being still.

I walked in rebellion and disobedience for so long that I had to retrain my ear to hear the voice of my Father. The world can be so loud and He speaks in that still small voice. I had to just get away with Him. Sometimes it was hard to come out of those quite times and come back into the day to day of it all.
But, I came out reinforced, strengthened and FREE!!!!

I want to encourage you,

No matter where you find yourself today, don’t give up! It does get better. Breathing gets easier. Your steps get lighter! Some moments you have to take one breath at a time. Just remember to breathe!

2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Shalom my friends!!

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Great Is His Faithfulness


I remember last year at this time I was so focused on getting what I want when I wanted it.
Exhausted much !?!? Yes! I was absolutely worn out. I was an emotional wreck. Explosive out bursts of tears, excessive sleeping, and isolating myself from everyone/everything.
But, this year I’m no where near where I was. I don’t feel sad or empty, I don’t feel like I’m missing something. It’s almost surreal. I think I’m content.

My husband and I are closer than we’ve ever been.
I no longer have a negative association with Christmas because it was around this time that our 1st baby moved to heaven.
For the first time since 2006 I’m excited about Christmas.

Don’t get me wrong I’ve been given every opportunity to feel sorry for myself. The enemy has tried to bring discouragement and depression. I just decided not to take it. I had to stand against it with The Word of God.

Getting up every morning praising God for His faithfulness. I open my curtains/blinds and let the brightness of the sun spill through my windows.

I still want to be a mommy more than anything. That hasn’t changed, I just made up my mind to trust God. It’s already done. It’s Finished! I’m no longer battling with when will it happen for me. It has already happened. I believe to see the goodness of The Lord in the land of the living.

I was holding onto my desire for children so tight, finally I can let them go and cast the care of them over onto Him. I understand now how Hannah could release Samuel. I get it. {Heavy Sigh}

I’m so thankful for where we are right now! I’m so grateful for everything we have been given. I’m just happy! I didn’t think I would ever be happy again. God has given me my joy back. 😄

Lamentations 3:23

New Living Translation
Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.

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Lifestyle Of Learning


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When God begins to deal with me in the difficult areas of my life I’ve learned that He is S-T-R-E-T-C-H-I-N-G me. That stretching is necessary. It increases my capacity to receive and be enlarged.

Isaiah 54:2

His desire is to take me from where I am and what I know into a new realm of revelation and wisdom because there is something that He is trying to get into my hands.

I am learning in my walk with The Lord that He has a great desire to teach me. In these lessons at times it can be uncomfortable because I am leaving behind old ways of doing things, old traditions, and what has been familiar.

Just because we have done something for a long period of time does not mean that it is right. Or I could say a long time spent doing something doesn’t make it a right thing to do.
Old mind sets and strongholds are brought to nothing as they are weighed against The Word of God.

In all of this He is not teaching me through hardship or struggle. He’s not using anything harsh to teach me. No accidents, injuries or punishment.
He is not using tribulation to teach. He is using revelation. He is teaching me through His Word. The eyes of my understanding are being enlightened.

Ephesians 1:18

Revelation-(Merriam’s Online Dictionary)
a : an act of revealing or communicating divine truth
b : something that is revealed by God to humans

God is using His Word to set the standards by which I live and operate in my life.

My part in that is that I make The Word of God first place and final authority. I put the Word of God in a place of honor in my life. It’s becoming like a mirror. As I find areas in my life that don’t line up with the Word I’m seeing, I don’t change that Word to fit my life; No, I change my life to fit The Word. I allow the Word to have priority in my life. Not my opinion or popular opinion.

Man you talk about a different way of living, for me this is absolutely foreign. I’ve seen so many areas in my life that I had a wrong way of thinking which lead me to live in a wrong way. Because I lived in a wrong way I set into motion spiritual laws that activated The Curse. I had no idea. I didn’t do it on purpose. It was done through ignorance. But never the less the enemy took full advantage of my ignorance and exploited it. Using it against me as entrance into my life and the affairs of my life. God had not cursed me or caused bad things to happen to me, I was in violation of His Word.

I know,some may say, “You’re a Christian you can’t be cursed”

My answer:

Yes, I’m born again. Yes, I am saved. Yes, Jesus is Lord over my life. Yes, I am redeemed from the curse. But, by violating the Word of God in certain areas I activated and set into motion the curse in my own life. The Curse is still active and in the earth. And through choices that I made knowingly or unknowingly I caused doors to be open to the enemy in my life. The enemy works through choices that we make. Holy Spirit gave me that weapon. I am now armed with better decisions.

Proverbs 26:2

Hosea 4:6

I was being destroyed by what I didn’t know. The enemy is a legalist. He will use your words against you. He will use what you don’t know against you. He will use the smallest thing as a way into your life. Sometimes it isn’t some huge thing in your life that is out of order it can be something so small. But that small thing can cause HUGE amounts of damage.

Those doors (well cracks) that were open to the enemy had to be closed. Thank God for His Grace. He is walking me through the closing of doors and showing me through my words how to activate The Blessing.

Holy Spirit has shown me that sometimes He has wanted to bring deliverance to His people but they have not wanted to change. They didn’t want to do something new. They have been afraid to learn. Some people just don’t want to do the work. Everything we do for God will take faith.

Good News: He supplies the faith to get the job done. Everything that God tells us to do will take obedience. We must be willing AND obedient in order to eat the good of the land. It’s conditional. But we want to skip all over the condition and get right to eating the good of the land.

Yeah, ok! How has that been working for you? For me it didn’t work at all. I spent so much time spinning my wheels.

I am determined to live my Christian life victoriously. Jesus died to set me free and I am going to glorify Him by living free. I refuse to live broke, busted and disgusted.

3 John 1:2

My situations did not begin to change until my mindset changed. So many people think this walk with God is some magic trick, or like rubbing a genie in a bottle. It doesn’t work like that. He loves us to much to let us stay the same.
That love is not one of human emotion. It is one that wants what is best for the one who is the receiver of that love.

Negative patterns of behavior had to be uprooted. I no longer violate principles and plead the promises of God.

2 Corinthians 2:11

2 Corinthians 2:14

Photo by: Antoine Beauvillain

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Question


If Holy Spirit is The Great Teacher,and He is, what have we learned this year? 

John 14:26

2014 is rapidly coming to a close, we are right on the heels of a New Year. We have spent almost 365 days with the Holy Spirit, what have we learned? How have we grown? What goals have we accomplished?

You see, if He is The Teacher that means we must yield to becoming students and either learn something new that we haven’t previously known or have a refresher course in things we have known but let slip and we no longer put into practice. 

This morning as I was going about my day Holy Spirit began to speak with me. (How cool is that, He is present with us in our day)

God deals with me alot in the area of the renewed mind. Tearing down strong holds that have held me captive, most I had no idea were even there. 

Personally I have to admit that I have learned many invaluable lessons. Honestly I feel as if I’ve been in Holy Spirit Boot Camp if you will.

We as the Body of Christ cannot afford to remain scripturally illiterate. There are many things that are about to take place that will require us to live from within. By that I mean we are children of the Supernatural, we must begin to live from the inside out. 

Colossians 1:27

We have got to spend time in The Word of God. That can be challenging ; the world around us is constantly pulling & tugging vying for our attention. But, we have to choose God as our priority. We have got to get the wisdom of God and begin to operate within the Kingdom.

We must become Kingdom of God minded. 

Kingdom of God-God’s way of doing things.

We cannot afford to remain the same. God is ever growing and increasing. That means we must stretch and not become lazy and complacent.

Stretching is uncomfortable and it has a purpose.

Stretching-the result is a feeling of increased muscle control, flexibility and range of motion. The more we stretch the greater our range of motion and our flexibility. It increases our capacity to receive. 

Example: You can’t put 10pds of sugar in a 5pd bag. It will not fit. You will have sugar spilling out all over the place.

I hope that analogy works for you? Because God cannot put 2015 revelations into a 2009 mindset. It’s time to come up higher. 

Hosea 4:6

satan is against Godly wisdom. he does not want us learning and maturing in the things of God. he thrives off of our ignorance and laziness. he wants the church ignorant, sick and broke. 

The saying, “The Battlefield Is In The Mind” is not just some cute cliche’. It is truth. 

We are tri-part beings. We are spirits who have a soul and live in a body. Our minds-house our souls. That’s our thinker, feeler and chooser. We must prosper in our souls. Our thoughts form our words, our words in turn frame the world we see around us. 

3 John 1:2

In order for our results to change we have to change our minds. Our thought processes. How we send & receive information. 

Romans 12:2

We accomplish this by spending time in God’s word and allowing Holy Spirit to teach us. He’s pretty cool to hang out with. He has a funny sense of humor too. Get to know Him, I promise you; you’ll never regret it. Life gets so much easier. It doesn’t have to be hard. We don’t have to get all the bumps and bruises.

It’s all about relationship. Do you share personal information with people you are not intimate with? Neither does God. Think about it.

Until next time, 

May the peace of God and the sweet communion of the Holy Spirit guard your hearts and minds.

Shalom my friends

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Season’s Change


Ecclesiastes 3:1
​ To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

The smell of freshly brewed coffee is coming from my kitchen as I type this.
Few things in life smell better to me. As I am waiting on my cup-of- joe to finish I am sitting here looking out my window; the leaves have fallen off the trees, what once was green grass is now brown. The colors of summer are now long gone. The vibrant greens have now changed to autumn oranges, yellows and reds.
Today the sun isn’t shining brightly but never the less today is still a gorgeous day.

This moment is reflective of life as I see it. Everything hasn’t gone my way, in the time frame I would have liked but as I take note of the natural progression of things I’m comforted in knowing that my season like the 4 Season’s of The Year are changing as well.

2014, is coming to an end-My how this year has gone by quickly; I have this overwhelming sense of expectancy about the things to come. I hold dear these precious moments that I can just take the time to sit still and pay attention to the things that matter.

My heart is filled with gratitude for the wonderful things God has done. He has kept me and my family all year long. Keeping us from danger, hurt and harm. He has provided all of our needs and He has been FAITHFUL in every way.

How about you, what season are you in? How have you decided to approach this new season of life? I encourage you in whatever season you may be in to find the peace that is so readily available through trusting in The Lord’s Love towards you.

I pray that we will be like the sons of Issachar who were wise and knew how to discern the seasons (times).

1 Chronicles 12:32
And of the children of Issachar, which were men that had understanding of the times, to know what Israel ought to do; the heads of them were two hundred; and all their brethren were at their commandment.

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