Great Is His Faithfulness

I remember last year at this time I was so focused on getting what I want when I wanted it.
Exhausted much !?!? Yes! I was absolutely worn out. I was an emotional wreck. Explosive out bursts of tears, excessive sleeping, and isolating myself from everyone/everything.
But, this year I’m no where near where I was. I don’t feel sad or empty, I don’t feel like I’m missing something. It’s almost surreal. I think I’m content.

My husband and I are closer than we’ve ever been.
I no longer have a negative association with Christmas because it was around this time that our 1st baby moved to heaven.
For the first time since 2006 I’m excited about Christmas.

Don’t get me wrong I’ve been given every opportunity to feel sorry for myself. The enemy has tried to bring discouragement and depression. I just decided not to take it. I had to stand against it with The Word of God.

Getting up every morning praising God for His faithfulness. I open my curtains/blinds and let the brightness of the sun spill through my windows.

I still want to be a mommy more than anything. That hasn’t changed, I just made up my mind to trust God. It’s already done. It’s Finished! I’m no longer battling with when will it happen for me. It has already happened. I believe to see the goodness of The Lord in the land of the living.

I was holding onto my desire for children so tight, finally I can let them go and cast the care of them over onto Him. I understand now how Hannah could release Samuel. I get it. {Heavy Sigh}

I’m so thankful for where we are right now! I’m so grateful for everything we have been given. I’m just happy! I didn’t think I would ever be happy again. God has given me my joy back. 😄

Lamentations 3:23

New Living Translation
Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.